I haven’t put anything up in a while because it’s been craazy this past semester. But i’m honestly so excited to put up this post. This post is really special to me and i am very excited to share the joy that i have been experiencing these past weeks. There’s still this excitement that i feel every time and it’s soo much that i can’t even sit down to type. It’s crazy, i know. But i was finally able to keep it together! And yes i know i’m talking too much so lemme stop. lol.
I want to know something from you guys;
You ever had moments when you literally can’t stop smiling? Because of the beautiful things that someone has told you? The most beautiful things your ears could ever hear?
Times when someone held your hand and squeezed it so tight that you had goosebumps that also gave you the assurance that you needed to hold on?
Times when somebody whispered; ‘I’m always here’
When someone gave you the tightest hug that made you feel like everything is going to be alright, no matter what?
I’ve had that 🙂
I constantly have that. Everyday!
And a lot of times i don’t want to wake up to the world and its troubles and distraction.I just want to have those moments, forever!
That’s what makes me know i’m in Love. And most importantly, that’s the constant reminder I have that I.AM.LOVED….Genuinely, Specially, Extra-ordinarily loved! This love, nobody can take away from me. Not even me!
One of those things you really can’t fully explain no matter how hard you tried. And it’s reality. It’s fact! These are not some words I read from some storybook. It’s personal.
Many times I’ve heard others talk about God so beautifully and every time, i’m like “wow! I want to be able to talk about God like that!I want to experience Him like that”. And one time He said to me; “You have always had me, you have just never utilized what you have!”
Thing is, I know that I’ve always been and forever would be a sucker for love. lol. What I also do know is that I had some measly, mediocre, pathetic, theoretical definition of love? But God picked up that desire, and taught me the real deal. What Love really means!
And I’m always forever grateful for what He’s taught me and for what He’s teaching me. The love i’ll always have and the love we’ll always share. That personal Love that i have and can take everywhere with me.My sole ambition is to love the same way.
I have learned that Love comes with growth. So everyday i’m growing and experiencing a whole new level of love! It’s overwhelming! It’s breathtaking! And I’m nowhere near perfection!
I’m reading this book by Francis Chan called Crazy Love! And on the cover page, it says; “Overwhelmed By A Relentless God”. I got this book like a year and half ago? And I’ve been sooo slow with it because of school and all it’s work! (rolls eyes!) Last week, I read Chapter 6! (right? after a year, i’m now reading chapter six!) But I tell you, it was perfect timing! The title of the Chapter is ‘When you’re in love’.( ya, that’s the picture i put up)Again I say perfect timing! I’m glad I didn’t read this chapter with my myopic idea of love! I was reading the chapter and it was like he literally stole the words from my heart and put them out in this book! (send that to Francis! lol) Well not entirely. lol. I love those words! . I learned so much from that chapter, it’s like you just can’t get enough of Love. seriously!
Something special happened to me on the 15th of April,2012.I saw Jesus in my dream! Bestest dream ever! *swoon!* I’ve always said ‘oh when I see Jesus, I’m gonna ask Him such and such and such. At that moment, the 5000 gazillion things I have told myself that I would ask God if ever I met Him? they were running through my mind alright but all my mouth kept saying were the words I Love You! And this wasn’t premeditated! I said those words for the longest time to a point where they seemed so lacking! and then I ran to hug Him. You know the part of the song “I can only imagine” where it says;
“Surrounded by Your glory, what will my heart feel
Will I dance for You Jesus or in awe of you be still
Will I stand in Your presence or to my knees will I fall
Will I sing hallelujah, will I be able to speak at all ”
This song has a beautiful whole other meaning to me now! i was star struck! for lack of a better expression.(Every time i think of it or talk about it, I really can’t stop smiling!) I was literally in awe of Him. I forgot about all those questions. they meant nothing! absolutely nothing to me! I just wanted to tell my Love how much I love Him. Everybody keeps asking me, ‘what did He say? What did He say?’. He didn’t speak. He didn’t say a word. It was enough that He told those ‘bodyguards’ to leave me alone, so I can come to Him! It was enough that He held me soo gently that at that moment, my whole world was alright! (I really can’t stop smiling!) I could feel in my heart, my soul, the depth of my being, that right there, was where I always want to be.
I’m hooked on this video; “close encounters of the God Kind” and I tell you if you haven’t seen it, I suggest you do so! no seriously. The preacher, Jesse Duplantis, says when God gets close to you, you can feel it in your body, your soul, your spirit. Ditto! Totally! And at that moment when I held Him, and He held me back, I didn’t need words! I didn’t need Him to say a thing!
I have chosen,and still learning to give my heart, wholly and completely to the One who understands and can take care of it, more than even I ever could. He’s so into me, sometimes I need to take a look back on my life so I know it’s real. And it is! And when the time is right, He’ll take a part, maybe all, but just enough, and give it to His creation and teach him how to take care of it. And every step along the way, He’ll be coaching him. making sure he’s getting it right. 🙂
But for now, in this moment, I am totally, perfectly in the best place I could ever be! Tell me what else makes life worthwhile? 🙂
Are you utilizing your Love?
He’s one and the same. If i can have Him, you can too! I promise! And I can’t wait for you to tell me all about it!
God Bless You!